I've told you before that when the Hillbilly starts going and getting all quiet, then there is usually an underlying cause. I have had friends asking for an update, and there are so many praying for us that I really should give you one, so here goes:
He is sick. His liver is quite enlarged now (can be seen even through his clothing), and just over the last couple of days, especially tonight, is painful. His Chron's is starting to spiral so tomorrow he is going to call several docs on his medical team and see about getting seen next week. On top of all his other problems his sciatic nerve is hurting him!
Sadly, he was supposed to go on a men's retreat this weekend. Someone sponsored to pay for Jerry and Seth to go. Jerry may have to say no, he will decide in the morning.
As of Monday, FMLA runs out so Jerry can be fired at anytime. This means he will lose his insurance. Cobra insurance is $1500 for Jerry. Talk about impossible. So?? We've heard no word on disability other than he has a case manager so we have NO idea what is going to happen. He may actually have to switch away from KU due to insurance. Did I say something about scary?
While none of us like to think about it..we have to. If Jerry loses his job, he will lose his life insurance. I no longer have a cushion to carry Stephen and I a few years until Stephen is a bit older if Jerry decides to walk the Golden Streets.
Money has me scared silly basically. I cannot make ends meet anywhere. How one lives on about $1000 a month is beyond me; but we are making an entire family live off of it; including a ton of meds. Sadly we have had to drop a couple of meds that I just cannot afford to cover.
(gosh I hate sharing this stuff and hope if you are just here for the quilting will stop now and go to my Hillbilly Quilt Shop blog and never visit this one again because it's become a journal of our journey with my husband's multiple illnesses and health issues. )
As for the Hillbilly....
I keep just trying to do everything I can!! I am TRYING to work as much as I can but also taking time to rest. Like tonight, its not that late. When I hit publish, I am off to bed. I had this high hope of my little shop carrying us through but after we just found out that he will probably lose his job and insurances etc, I don't know that the shop will do a thing to help, but I have to at least try, right?
Bless Stephen's heart, he loves the shop and can't wait for a visitor to come. No one has yet. They will my sweet boy. Stephen saw his daddy's tummy sticking out and all hard tonight, and got tears in his eyes. He knows all is not right with the world. But then, he has never known life to be any differently since Jerry has basically been sick his entire life.
A note to my Facebook world:
I just wanted everyone to know in my group and such why I am so quiet. When things get tense, I get quiet. It's how I deal with it. So thanks for your understanding. I know so many of you have helped us out and I appreciate it so much.I just need a couple of days to deal with the latest (loss of job and insurances and Jerry's very visible declining health) then I'll be back like normal, ok?